Growing While Hidden

It’s been a while.  Where have I been you ask? Since I last posted after the 2018 National Life of a Single Mom Conference in Houston life took a drastic turn.  August, 2018 began a season of illness battling diverticulitis.  Four hospitalizations and a major surgery later and my physical body was on the mend.  Now that my physical body was healed I just knew that the Lord was going to release me to hit the ground running, but to my surprise that was not the case.

While I was praying one day about going back to leading two single moms groups, serving on worship team, etc. the Father clearly told me that I needed to “return to my First Love”.  It was a call to return to deeper devotion to Him.  Little did I know the lessons I was about to learn and am still learning.  As the Father revealed my heart to me, it felt as though I’d been stripped of everything.  Who was I if I was not a worship leader?  What would I do if I wasn’t preaching His Word to single mommas?  Simply, put I was about to be reminded that I am but one thing…a daughter of the One True King.

I soon found out what it felt like to be hidden and boy was I not ready for how He revealed my heart to me.  Truthfully, I’d gotten so accustomed to being seen because the gifts, talents and abilities He’s given me just happen to allow me to grace His alter.  As I embarked on this journey I’ve been on for nearly a year now I never could have imaged the things my heart held that He has graciously pulled out and so patiently held my hand while making the necessary adjustments.  One revelation that rocked me is discovering just how much of my identity and value I found in what I did for the Kingdom.  Is there anything wrong with serving? No, but there is something inherently wrong with finding my worth in what God allows me to do rather than in who He says I am.   So, as I continue to pursue learning more about who the Father says that I am, I rest in the assurance of those truths.  When I stand on that firm foundation and the lies of the enemy come like a flood I’m better quipped to refute them.

Here are some of the truths Holy Spirit has shown me as I’ve been studying Ephesians 1 and 2 (and other scriptures as notated)…

~I am a saint who was blood bought.

~I am blessed because Abba works ALL things for my good. (Romans 8:28 – And we know that God causes all things to work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose.)

~I am chosen, a royal priesthood is my community.

~I am holy, sanctified and blameless before Him.

~I am adopted by the One True King, the Living God Almighty.

~I am redeemed through the work of the cross.

~I am forgiven.

~I’ve been gifted grace.

~I have a purpose because God has plans for me. (Isaiah 61:1 – The Spirit of the Lord is upon me, because the Lord has anointed me to bring good news to the poor; he has sent me  to bind up the brokenhearted, to proclaim liberty to the captives, and the opening of the prison to those who are bound.)

~I am an heir of the Father.

~I have hope and it does not disappoint! (Romans 5:1-5 – Therefore, having been justified by faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, 2 through whom also we have obtained our introduction by faith into this grace in which we stand; and we exult in hope of the glory of God. 3 And not only this, but we also exult in our tribulations, knowing that tribulation brings about perseverance; 4 and perseverance, proven character; and proven character, hope; 5 and hope does not disappoint, because the love of God has been poured out within our hearts through the Holy Spirit who was given to us.)

~He saved me because He loves me.

~I have authority.

~I am seated in heavenly places with Yeshua.

~I have wisdom and revelation through the Father.

These are only some of the truths the Father says about us as His children.  I encourage you to go study the Bible and discover (or rediscover) your identity in Christ.  It has been a sweet and challenging season, but I’m so excited about the growth I’m experiencing at the hands of the Father.  More to come.